Ok first off, again. Big sorry I have been a little slap dash in updating. I had some laptop troubles. I am not the most technically minded person and I had to re-install windows and then try and get everything back to how it was. Absolute nightmare but I think its all done now. Apart from I cant seem to turn the sound on, but I'm sure I will work it out somehow. I am rather proud of myself though as I never thought I would see the day where I was going all technological. It had to be done as I was waiting on an email from a job I had applied for. Its a week past the closing date for applications and I haven't heard anything so I take it I haven't even managed to get an interview, again. Cant help being majorly upset about this one. it was a job I really wanted, working with care leavers. So its something I feel very passionate about. Oh well I will keep trying. I have decided now that this is the path I want to take for work, having spent nearly all of my working life teaching riding and mucking out/grooming/ feeding etc horses I feel its time for a change. I do feel really lucky that I have been able to do a job that I have loved but now I have the two children and I am not getting any younger, its probably time to stop playing with ponies. The only thing though is that I really struggle doing jobs that I don't love. Don't get me wrong I am not in a position to be turning down work, and at the moment I will take anything that comes my way. I also need to think of the future. We still have no savings, no pensions and desperately need to move to a bigger, non damp house. Would be great if the kids didn't have to share a room anymore as the girl is finding it increasingly difficult to get any privacy and at her age now its important for her, and a job on the till at tesco isn't going to fund all that. One night just before the laptop packed up I applied to do the first part of a degree course haven't heard anything back yet but its focusing on the areas I want to end up working in and getting the chance to achieve a qualification in this field will be brilliant. I do worry that when I do eventually find something that I wont find the time for the gym anymore. See I have been a working mum before full and part time and there is no way I would have found time then and that was only with one child not two !!!
Back to the actual topic, this week I'm really feeling a change in my body. I am so happy that the tummy is finally starting to shrink, its so funny all my stretch marks (there are alot and very wide ones too) are starting to fold in on themselves. I am really hopeful that I wont be left with too much saggy skin. After watching embarrassing fat bodies for the last few weeks and seeing what people have to go through to get the skin removed makes me worry that I will end up with skin hanging everywhere. I feel so much better than when this whole thing started and I have a bit more of a spring in my step. This week I tried out a body pump class, which is basically aerobics but with weights. It was brilliant and will definitely being doing it again ( on Monday in fact) I have only been doing a little bit of running and the ankle was a bit twingy the first few days but is feeling ok now so I am starting right from the start again with just a few mins walking then a few running. I'm using the elliptical cross trainer alot. Its so much better than the normal ones and gives such a good workout that I'm just not as worried about the running as I was. I have also been doing alot on the bikes in preparation for a 45 mile bike ride in September that I have signed myself up for. its for the princes trust, which is a cause I feel strongly about. So that's all for now and I absolutely promise to keep on top of this blog now.
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