Heels and Knickers

As I mentioned in a previous post, there are some very interesting characters in the gym changing room and one lady who seems to be there just as much as me has caught my attention. I think she does the classes although she does pop into the gym sometimes to do weights but nothing about her in there makes her stand out. She seems pretty normal, not one of the poser club at all. The changing room is entirely different though. Ladies we all know we look better in a pair of heels and most fellas would make me right in saying a woman in heels and some nice underwear is a good look. This lady im sure is well aware of this as she just loves to look at herself dressed in said attire. After her shower she slips on her knickers and heels, sometimes a bra, sometimes not and then proceeds to check herself out, not a quick glance. Im talking a full on posing session with turns to the sides, facing away from the mirror and glancing  back over her shoulder. After all this then she stands and dries her hair, full on blow drying. Not just a rough head upside down blast. All the time in her heels and knickers like she is in her bedroom on her own. Then she applies her make up, and then the perfume. On the wrists, neck and then the 'One for luck, or just in case' spray !!!!!!! Now i did wonder if I was being prudish, but having considered it im of the thinking that spraying your twinkle in a room full of people getting changed is really not the done thing, especially if you are drawing so much attention to yourself whilst doing it. All very odd.
  In other news I am feeling much better now, I have got my car back and im changing my gym schedule as I have realised the reason why I seem to be struggling so much is that im doing alot of cardio and after talking to my R.P.M teacher I need to balance my sessions more so im doing a good mixture of weights and cardio. So R.P.M tomorrow followed by free weights. Tuesday im doing cardio in the gym and then a 30 min ab class, wednesday might be a day off or I might go and do some cardio in the evening, thursday R.P.M and free weights and friday will be a day off as the gym is shut this week for good friday. I am a bit worried about this free weights thing as I dont really know what I am doing but I have looked up a few exercises on YouTube and have been secretly watching what other people are doing while I use the cross trainers upstairs. I like the view I get from up there and often use the goings on around me to keep myself entertained.
 

Thank god for the save button

I had a bad weekend, a car breakdown ruined our lovely trip to the seaside and four days later my car is still at the seaside in a garage and has had so much work done to it that the money im spending on fixing it is more than the car is acually worth. Then I went to the gym on sunday and had a terrible workout, felt like I may as well have not bothered going. I just couldnt get my head into it and could only manage a five minute jog on the treadmill although I did 20 on the bike and 15 on the cross trainer for some reason the run is for me the thing that makes me feel like I have worked hard. Had a big domestic with the other half on Sunday afternoon, big enough to leave me wondering about the state of our relationship and if it really is all worth it. Monday brought more misery, no gym. couldnt get there without the car. Daughter asking me if I still loved Daddy !!! That was a hard one to hear, "of course I do, its just sometimes I dont like him" was my reply. Is that an acceptable answer for a ten year old ? More news on the car telling me it was going take longer than they thought was just enough to send me over the edge. The other half then walks thru the door with 20 fags for me (thats a romamtic gesture in my house and I wouldnt have it any other way) and within seconds im in tears. What a soppy muppet. I realise now that i dont really need to question our relationship even though he is a complete arse sometimes.
   The thing is it doesnt take much to send me into a mini depression, having suffered since I was in my teens and been on and off medication for it I know the signs that im heading for a big dip.When im feeling low I do over think things, I wouldnt say I dramatise but I just cant see the simple veiw, or the positive sides. Its all bad, grey and wrong. I can feel this coming and it frightens me, but having my new plan at the gym in place is going to help. Excercise isnt just for weight loss. They say that when you exercise your body releases happy endorphins. I have a feeling im going to be testing that theory out quite a bit.
 Monday night I sat and typed out the next blog entry, Iwas sat in bed because the silence in the front room was unbearable (both too stubborn to give in and talk to each other) It was just finished when he came in for bed so I quickly saved it meaning to come back and post it later. Thank god I did. Having read it back its a load of moany drivel and basically just letting you all know what a terrible man my other half is. Now I have learnt two things from this
1) Never write whilst in the middle of a domestic
2) If I do, dont post it. Save it then read it back two days later and see what a self indulgent prat I am being.

  Having not managed to get to the gym today either I absolutely must go tomorrow or I will have another day of feeling like im letting myself down and giving up too easily. Im booked on an R.P.M class first thing, the kids are going to hate me come the morning when I drag them out of bed to get there on time. The good side of not having the car means I am doing alot of walking but i should have it back by tomorrow and normal service can be resumed.

falling down shorts and women who like to talk to strangers whilst naked !!!

So today i had another go at the R.P.M, im pleased to report my 'bits' werent so sore after and i felt much more comfortable during the class. Managed a ten minute run and ten on the cross trainer after too. Yesterday i did a 18 minute run !!!! i can honestly say i have never run for that long in my life before and i was so pleased with myself, i also did 20 on the cross trainer and 20 on the bike, along with the weights so all in all i think i have worked flippin hard this week.
   A funny thing happened to me today, after the gym i shower and get dressed into normal (non gym) clothes. This means i have to chose my outfit for the day before i go and take it with  me. I was in a bit of a hurry this morning when i set off so seeing how lovely it was outside i just grabbed a pair of shorts and a vest top. When i put the shorts on after my shower i noticed they felt a little loose but im sure they were loose last year the last time i wore them so wasnt that bothered. Got the son from creche and went to pick up my daughter from my mums. On the journey my son fell asleep, pulled up at home got out the car and opened the front door, walked back to the car and picked up a rather heavy sleeping child and started to walk up the path to the door, with every step i could feel my shorts slipping down a little more but carrying a sleeping child i just couldnt do anything about it except walk with my legs further apart. needless to say this wasnt very effective and they fell to the floor, exposing my bum to all. Luckily for me and everyone else i live at the very end of a very quiet close. My daughter was in stitches. All the time the sleeping boy didnt even stir.
  Changing rooms are a funny place, maybe because i was brought up by my dad but i have a real issue with getting changed in front of strangers, actually infront of anyone who isnt my other half or the kids. I have always been like this even before i was overweight so  i cant see that ever changing. I do understand this is not the same for everyone but why oh why do women that i dont know feel they need to start a full blown conversation with me whilst they are completly naked not even using a towel to cover themselves up. As if thats not enough then while they are talking to me they then start drying their fanny. I dont wanna see that, i know im probably being a real prude but i cant cope with it. Being brought up by a man means i never saw women getting changed around me whilst growing up, and dad was really protective of me telling me never to let people see my body and to be wary of changing rooms etc. One woman next to me decided to bend down to dry her toes shoving me with her butt naked bum. I feel so uncomfortable in these situations and i think its probably the only time i go red. On the other hand though they are some real characters that i have come across in the gym and changing rooms as the weeks go on im sure i will be telling you all about them. Im a real people watcher and i love nothing more than to earwig convo's i hear.
  Tomorrows a day off from the gym and im taking the kids to the seaside. Someone asked if i was going to leave the gym for the two weeks my daughter is off for easter. Hell no, i have only just got into my stride so have booked her into the holiday kids club they have running there    
                              till next time xxxx

busy busy !!!!!!!

Well things are starting to really happen now and weight is falling off, my legs are looking so much slimmer and i have also lost alot of weight from my face, neck and upper body. All this leaves me with the apperance similar to a walking egg as my belly is still refusing to shrink. This could be down to the fact that despite me saying i was going to work harder i havent yet although i have tried too, its just hard fitting everything in. also im not really doing any ab work yet, but i am still really happy with the progress i have made.
 So with all going well and feeling really spurred on i decided to try a R.P.M class. One word, OUCH !!!!! no not Ouch from the workout, (which i loved) Ouch from the seat of the damm bike, so so so hard on the bum and other delicate bits !!!!. Its like spinning but set to up tempo music, in the dark with disco lights (i dont know if all teachers do the same with the lights) and the instructor shouts alot about climbing hills and turning up the resistance on the bike. There are sections which you do standing which are supposed to be a killer but i was so relived to be lifting my bum off the seat i didnt notice. At one point the instructor got of her bike and came over to shout encouragement, not sure if it helped kinda just made me want to smack her in the face which i obviously wasnt going to do so i just peddled a bit faster.At the end of the class i was dripping in sweat, so it must be good.
 Just to throw a spanner in my well oiled routine my son has come down with some kind of bug and there is no gym for me today, shame as i wanted to give the R.P.M another go. Also i now am sitting here worrying that im not working hard enough which is silly as im only missing one session so far but i know how easily i tend to give up on things given half the chance and a deccent excuse. I am hoping to go tonight instead between school runs and the other half going to do his last indoor nets session before the cricket season starts, lets see how well that goes down with the fella !!!!